Motherhood

Why We Moved Back Home

In 2015, the year after we got married, my husband and I packed up all of our things and moved to Florida. We didn’t have kids yet and I wanted to move away while I still could. I was making pretty good money and just got a big bonus at work, and I wanted to spend it on moving. I had always wanted to live in Florida ever since I could remember.

I was glad I had found someone who shared the same goals as me: Getting the heck out of dodge. I grew up in a small town and I always dreamed of moving away. Seriously. I would have dreams about it at night when I was a kid. When I was in high school getting ready to graduate I was sure I was going to move to California and be a fashion designer.

Fate had other plans for me…

So we lived in Florida for about two years. It was hot. I didn’t make much money but I liked my job. My husband went out a lot and I would stay home. We grew distant from each other. On Friday and Saturday nights I would drink a bottle of wine and fall asleep while he was out doing … well, I don’t really know what we would do…but I was feeling very lonely.

I didn’t think I could get pregnant. After we had been together for 3 years and hadn’t gotten pregnant, I sort of gave up. I kept telling myself “I really didn’t want to have kids anyway”. Now looking back, I know it was just anger and sadness built up, because I even had a list of baby names saved in the notes section of my phone.

I remember the first time I thought about wanting to move while we were still in Florida. We were looking for houses because we wanted to buy a home. After we spent several weeks looking at houses – none of which we liked, or were too old or small or just didn’t feel right – I got frustrated. Homes back home were such a better value – something I knew moving to Florida, but everything was just too much. Having two jobs, not having a support system, not being able to find a home…

Long story short, we moved to Colorado where I got pregnant, and eventually moved back home. Do I miss Florida? Yes. I’m so glad I lived there for a short period of time. Maybe someday I will win the lottery and move back. LoL. But I am really glad we did move, because I ended up getting pregnant and we have a sweet beautiful perfect baby boy that I’m in love with and have dreamed about for so long.

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